Your Own Worst Enemy

Face the uncomfortable truth behind your patterns of self-destruction. With this 30-day shadow work journal, you’ll unpack the real reasons you keep getting in your own way.

You Wreck Everything Good.

And You Don’t Even Know Why.

You say you want peace.

But you pick the fight.

You say you want love.
But you ghost the one who saw you.

You chase meaning.
Then drown in distraction.

And when the dust settles—
You’re left staring at your own reflection, thinking:
What the hell is wrong with me?

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Sometimes, the monster under the bed...

Is you.

Not the real you.
The unhealed you.

The version that learned to smile through gritted teeth.
To stay quiet so you wouldn’t be left.
To expect disappointment—and beat it to the punch.

The version that learned:

Sabotage = Safety.
Distance = Control.
Collapse = Comfort.

Because pain you cause is better than pain you never saw coming.

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You’re Not Broken. You’re Wired.

This isn’t your fault.
But it is your pattern.

You learned to destroy before anything could destroy you.

You learned that:

• Numb is safer than hope

• Silence is safer than asking

• Collapse is easier than trusting something that might leave

And now?

You're stuck in the loop.
Watching yourself ruin everything.
Over. And over. And over.

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This Isn’t a Journal.

It’s a Reckoning.

The Self-Sabotage 30-Day Shadow Work Journal isn't here to soothe you.
It’s here to strip away the bullshit.

It’s not some Pinterest morning routine.
It’s not a gratitude checklist.
It’s not about “raising your vibration.”

It’s a mirror.
A crowbar.
A quiet scream into pages that won’t judge you for falling apart.

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What’s Inside:

• 🔪 30 raw, unfiltered prompts that expose your sabotage patterns

• ⚡ Deep work on betrayal wounds, shame spirals, abandonment, control, and fear of success

• 💬 Full-page reflection space to rage, grieve, unpack, and get honest

• 📄 Instant-download PDF — no waiting, no filters, no fluff

• ⏳ Use it daily, weekly, or in the middle of a breakdown—it’ll hold what you can’t

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This Is For You If...

• You ruin things the second they get too good

• You lie to yourself just to get through the day

• You sabotage the change you claim you want

• You’re done pretending you’re fine when you’re clearly not

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This Work Hurts.

But So Does Living Like This.

You already know what happens when you keep avoiding it:

• The loop resets

• The guilt returns

• The shame digs deeper

• The dream gets quieter... until it’s gone

This journal won’t fix you.
It’s not a cure.

But it will show you the truth.
And that might just be enough to change everything.

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Download. Print. Begin.

No filters.
No performance.
No timeline.

Just you. A pen. And the part of you that’s finally ready to stop bleeding all over your own life.

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I write for the ones doing the real work.

The ones who are tired of pretending.
The ones who crave more than quotes and empty affirmations.
The ones ready to face the dark and still choose to move forward.

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No fluff. No circus.
Just real work for real healing. If it’s for you—you’ll feel it