🖤 About This Space

This is not a place for pretending.

It’s not where you come to manifest your dream life in five easy steps.
It’s not where you’ll find mantras slapped over pain like duct tape.

This is a space for the ones who’ve done the work—
but still wake up with that ache in their chest.

The ones who know the language of healing…
but still fall into the same patterns that nearly broke them.

The ones who’ve read the books, gone to therapy, journaled through their tears—
and still feel like something inside them hasn’t been met.

What happens after the breakthrough?
After the survival mode ends—but peace still feels unfamiliar?

That’s what we explore here.

Through shadow work.
Through story.
Through quiet, consistent reflection that doesn’t ask you to be more—just to be real.

✍️ The Workbooks

Every two weeks, a new 30-day journal drops.

Not to fix you.
Not to give you answers.

But to help you see what’s been driving you from underground.

Each prompt is built to unravel, not resolve.
To help you stop bypassing and start feeling.
To give shape to the parts of you that are tired of hiding behind a smile.

👤 About Ryan Puusaari

I didn’t set out to be a writer.

I just broke.

And when I did, writing was the only thing that didn’t judge me for it.

My healing didn’t start with a plan.
It started with a panic attack in a grocery store parking lot, a marriage that ended without warning, and a journal that became my only safe place.

Years later, after losing nearly everything—including my home—I realized something:

Most people don’t need more motivation.
They need mirrors.
Structure.
And one small, steady way to meet themselves in the dark.

That’s what I create now.
Not to save anyone—but to give others what I wish I’d had when I hit the floor.

I’m not a guru. I’m not here to tell you how to feel.
I’m just someone who got tired of surviving—and decided to start listening to the voice underneath all the noise.

This site was built for that voice. Yours, too.

Welcome to the work.

– Ryan